I ran over a child today.


The colors ran red and cold. Laughing me in the face.

I was looking at a sparrow perched on a fallen twig. I didn't want to run it over. It was singing to itself so merrily... oblivious of the fact that a monster was headed straight for it.

She didn't even run in front of me, like they always do.

Crouching about two meters in the road, banging two fallen twigs together, a giggle hot glued to her chubby lips that had sunk in and decided to nest in her body.

It's funny how the details stick into your brain like persistent flakes of cat hair... I veered over the yellow strip. Missed the bird. Smiled, looked up and saw her. Hit the brakes. Too late.

Before the awful thump. I swerved, I lurched - I tried with all my might and strength to even flip the damn van over. Anything to not hit her... anything. A wayward tree laughed mocking at me and patted my head, then swatted me onwards toward the inevitable.

She didn't even look up. She didn't even have a chance.


Why.


I collided with her as if the vehicle and my body were inalienable. Yes. It was I who snarled in her ignorant face with heavy hot breaths. I who raped her of life, before leaving the deformed shape of her corpse crumbled in the ruins of it all.

I lost control of the wheel after that. Spun round once or so and didn't even care. Let me die too. Please. Please. Let me die too. Ha ha ha, the wise old tree smirked, as if.

In the end I crashed through the barrier into some pond... lake?... I don't know now and I didn't care then. I was fine with drowning - in fact - I welcomed it. Closed my dazed eyes and waited. Shame some ignorant fools happened to be fishing on their dock... and in the events that followed I was "saved".

Saved from what? As I lay in the hospital bed that smelt strongly of plastic and anesthetic - I knew. I had been brought back not from the fires of Hell, but into Hell. Living Hell.

...

Oh little nursie be ye careful
Else I might just disappear.
Grab a knife and soon thereafter
Red, cold red will be my friend.


Ahaaahaaahaaaahaaaaaheeeeehaaaaaaaaaaahaaahaaheeehaaaa...